March 2011
My siblings mean the world to me.
They’re one of the few things I care about in life.
February 2011
Sleep.
I need some. If I just got some shut eye, maybe my head would stop thinking such absurd things.. yep. Going to bed, I think… and my brain will stop thinking such things, and I will be asleep.. and I’m tired. And I want to sleep all day tomorrow.
I'm gonna try to fight it.
I think that it’s just better that way.
I hate when I get butterflies for no reason..
Just sitting here.. not thinking about anything… and bam. I feel all giggly and and have butterflies. NOTHING HAPPENED. Being a girl, is weird. I wonder if that happens to boys too.
juliekelle asked: Jordan and your family are in my prayers, I'm not sure what exactly is going on.. but from that post nothing that little dude should ever have to go through. I love you <3
Jordan.
So, in case you wanted an update on the little guy. He’s doing pretty well. I went to visit him yesterday. I didn’t have a chance to today. He was in a lot of pain. I heard him say “ow” once. It was heartbreaking.
He’s been the topic of discussion at IU med school already. Like I’ve said before, what he had was pretty rare.
He got his tube take out of his...
My baby brother is out of surgery!
My parents are going to go see him now. I don’t know if I’ll be able to see him today, but I’m just so glad he’s safe. They’re 99% sure that the tumor is benign.
This particular case is extremely rare. They’ve never seen a tumor attached to the aorta, that was this big. We found out it was the size of a baseball.
We had some pretty bad news earlier, that tore...
I have amazing friends.
And times like these is when I need them the most..
Riley Hospital for Children
Waiting for news about Jordan.
My baby brothers heart is too big.
They have to get an ultrasound of his chest tomorrow. I’m probably just gonna be crying a lot before bed.. I love that little guy so much.
Ugh. I need this to stop.
I know it’s happening. It’s just too weird. It’s too weird. I wish I could talk myself out of it. I refuse to admit anything to anyone else. I know I’m lying. I’m lying to others, and I’m lying to myself. But I can’t let myself think that it is, what it is. It’s just too weird. Cryptic enough for ya?
Crap. I'm tired.
And so, just bewildered. I really am so confused about so many things.. And I’m so tired, so it probably doesn’t help. Goodnight everyone, don’t let the bed bugs bite.
I was told I needed to flirt more.
In the play of course…
Planning on practicing that tomorrow, shouldn’t be too difficult.. :)
A girl that was in my Pre-Cal class my sophomore...
Okay, cool story bro.
I don't know how to feel about this.
I don’t think it’s okay to want it..
I've been awake for 31 hours.
Minus a short 10 minute nap.. But that’s whatever. My eyes hurt.
Last night. Man.. Get a few girls together, and start talking about some things.. You learn a lot about the people you go to school with, that’s for sure.
I've say it once, and I'll say it again.
I completely forget that guy’s have insecurities too. In some ways, I bet it’s harder for guys.. Because everyone thinks of them like they shouldn’t have insecurities. I’m gonna try to remember that really everyone has things they wish were different.
What's up ladies, they call me the blizzard. Why?...
What’s up ladies, they call me the weatherman. Why? Because I promise to give you 8 inches and all you really get is 3.
Am I funny too?
